a late night mood

So many life choices.

I've made so many life choices. It's easy to say that you were forced to do this or that, because of the circumstances you were in, but really that's just your excuse, the 'reason' you provide for the choice you decided to make.

I've chosen to work full-time and study part-time. I've chosen to not run away from home in a flurry of wild anger and hate and a longing for escape. I've chosen to take music as a hobby and not a lifelong passion that will send my name all across the world.

I keep telling myself, yeah I'm going to do this, I'm going to do that,

but really,

I've already lived a quarter of my life, possibly more, possibly a little less.


That's really scary.