this guy is also a wicked dancer

this guy danced at our christmas party and i think he's awesome

because i don't know what to do

Do you ever feel lonely sometimes? And you don't really know what you want to do at that particular moment. Nothing really interests you or motivates you, or you want to do something but you don't know how. Or you want to talk to that somebody who is special to you, but you hold yourself back, knowing or feeling that you mean nothing to them so why intrude on their peace, just because you're feeling needy right now.

..Wow. That actually made me feel a bit better.



I don't write on here much anymore. I guess that means I've either grown lazy, or I've run out of time and this is not a priority in my life, or I've had enough of self-therapy hidden in a blog's clothing. Because this blog has nothing on the political, tech-related, informational and educational sites out there. Nobody reads this (to my knowledge) and that doesn't bother me one bit. I guess I just enjoy typing for something other than emails and work and Facebook posts.. and this isn't something I keep saved on my computer in a word document or anything like that, so it can't really be 'accidentally' come across.. heck, it's on the world wide web.


Time for a check on myself again.

What am I passionate about? The Dave Matthews Band. And Ben Harper. I definitely feel like Harper is my homeboy. I don't really know what 'homeboy' means, but it sounds cool, and to me it has the meaning of somebody I look up to and respect, in an almost idolising way (I say 'almost', because I don't think he's a god).

I enjoy good music. My definition of good music isn't restricted to a single style of music. Sometimes I am whisked away to another plane by Classical; I close my eyes and take in melodic chords and dischords of grand orchestras, choirs, and beautifully lyrical soloists, be it instrumental or vocal. Or maybe I'm having a ball listening to Jazz; madly tapping my foot to a big band tune, singing along to a jazz standard I've grown to know and love, or swaying along to a soft Latin-style jazz tune.

Good music is also found in a Hip-hop or Rock fashion; catchy riffs and chorus lines get me up and about, dancing like a rocker or a hip-hopper in the comfort of my room. Or perhaps it's a more emotional R&B or Alternative tune, something I can relate to and gain new energy from.

Funny how you can love something you don't understand. There is so much good music sung in languages foreign to me. You can sometimes find me lost in another world, enveloped in a melody from a country where English is not the mother tongue.


I think I'm more introvert than extrovert. People probably think the opposite, but that's because I can be really upbeat and happy around people I've begun to get along with. But that's precisely it. I don't often go up to somebody before they come up to me.. or at least I think that's what I do.


Time for bed. Sleep will make me feel better.

Dave Matthews - Sister

I've heard this on the Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds: Live at Radio City recording. Beautiful song..

Passing time with you in mind
Its another quiet night
Feel the ground against my back
Counting stars agains the black

Thinking about another day
Wishing I was far away
Wherever I dreamed I was
You were there with me

Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart feels full up
Keep me please
Sister, and when you cry
I feel your tears running down my face
Sister, sister, keep me

I hope you always know it's true
That I would never make it through
Cause you could make the sun go dark
Just by walking away

Playing like we used to play
Like it would never go away
I feel you beating in my chest
I'd be dead without

Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart feels full up
Keep me please
Sister, and when you cry
I feel your tears running down my face
Sister, sister, keep me

I hope you always know it's true
That I will never make it through
You could make the heavens fall
Just by walkin' away

Sister, I hear you laugh
My heart feels full up
Keep me please
Sister, and when you cry
I feel your tears running down my face
Sister, sister, keep me

don't bite the dust just yet

"Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well."
- Josh Billings


No idea who Josh Billings is, but it's a nice thought to have. Make the most of what you've got, and make more out of it.

spirited away

"Life without liberty is like a body without spirit."
- Kahlil Gibran

respect the elements

Today I went golfing. I had a respectable round, only two over handicap, so all was well, and I then decided to head out to the beach in the afternoon. Lounged around on the beach, catching some rays, then finally got up to head into the water.

The water was FREEZING. My feet were going numb within a few minutes of wading in the shallows. I kept wading deeper and deeper until I'd been hit by enough waves to be wet from head to toe - it was too cold to go diving into the water, and I'm usually one to really enjoy the waves regardless, so it must have been pretty damn cold. In any case, the further I went, the more I realised that the waves were pretty dumpy - you didn't want to be caught unawares in any of the waves coming through.

But of course, after skipping a few big waves I decided to try and catch one back to shore.. and got dumped. Hard. My legs flipped up above me and I plummeted into the ground head first. I was scared that I was going to get knocked out, so I got up as quickly as I could and tried to find him. He helped me back to shore and we picked up an ice pack from the professional lifeguards, and rested awhile on our towels.

I'm still in a lot of pain, and worried that something else is going to happen to me as a side effect of the blow to the head (virtually instant lump - I've never had anything like it before!) and shoulder. I also managed to graze my face pretty well, but that's minor considering the neck and shoulder pain I am experiencing.

But to the real point of my post - the lesson I have learned from this event is just how dangerous the elements can be. Wind, Water and Fire are the ones that come to mind - I know Earth is another, but I can't remember off the top of my head the fifth element (Air?). Admittedly I already had a respect for water - it's so fluid and soothing, yet it can be very, very forceful - but this has really taught me how dangerous water can be. I'm glad I'm a relatively strong swimmer.

Love and respect go hand in hand, and my relationship with water is no different.

upon a star

When he tries to cheer me up, I wish he would quote John Legend.

When I'm upset, I wish he knew that sometimes, all he needs to say is sorry.

I wish he wasn't such a defensive person.

I wish he would stop pointing out all the things I can't go to.

I wish he was more aware.



I wish I was a better person to him.